My nephew baby justIN

my nephew... he's so cute.. after the long 9 months of waiting... he's finally out to see the world... mia and mika had a lot of names in mind for baby justin at first and it all depend on their favorite artist like logan lerman etc etc.. until justin beiber came rockin' their world. So.. that's the story for his nickname.. "justin" I took this picture at s.a.c. (one eye partly open)

so, for his first name.. I was really expecting that m.baby (my sister) would somehow add "few" letters to his name.. some sort of, mar? zor? al? hmmm from papa's first name I suppose.. because I heard something like "jannmar" at work from her officemate... anyway... expect the unexpected... but so far justin's first name is kinda okay... sounds okay and meaningful.. its "jan joseph christopher" hmmm I'll just save papa's name for another precious baby afterall . huh? pressure... weeeeeeh =p not now.. but someday... in a right time. =) (just one eye open again..)

here justin opened his eyes.. at the nicu...(both eyes) and I am all alone seeing this!! mama was talking to the nurse and nobody is beside me to listen to what I was about to tell.. that justin just opened his eyes!!! people??? head snap.. huh... good thing I got my camera.

here.. justin is about to go home... mama is already at the rizal. Actually m.baby doesn't want to post this picture at the facebook... so, I obeyed.. I just post it here in my blog...hahahah =D frederick was the one taking the picture.. yeah... my certified shock absorber is present. heheheh =)

here justin with the girls... "manang mika" give emphasis to the word manang... hehehe mika is now "manang" but I heard she doesn't want to be called manang.. she created a new name again.. hmm I forgot but I am very sure it's not easy to pronounce.. well mia is the strongest among the three of us to carry justin. If myjoyjoy is around, I am sure she will carry justin.. she's really good in carrying new born babies. hmm me? I just don't know how to carry a baby who is only 3 days old!! not by now.. okay okay ill be learning it.. maybe instincts will do. =p

hmmm lexie.. the first friend ever that justin saw... saw?? okay.. rephrase... the very first friend that saw justin (9 day old cute baby) aside from the nurses at s.a.c. (hmm just forget the towel that hangs hehehe.. and the crib color? sorry no more "blue color" available) lexie would always give m.baby some foods for justin when m.baby was like 4 to 8 months on the way in the office.

here.. I am just spending time with justin.. this is taken March 26... justin is crying here.. and I am actually serious here.. because he's face is all red. =(

well.. that's all for now.. I am so happy and thankful for God gave us justin.. got to go.. till then.

its jaz my birthday...

Its been four months and I miss papa a lot... especially on my birthday. I still remember everything.. every birthday I spent with papa... papa would play the birthday songs (cassette tape) he bought in Saudi, ( during childhood I used to believe that it's papa singing those tracks for me when I was in grade school) he would wear red shirt and would wake me up with a Cinderella's wake up song (bird singing in the first part of the movie).. papa would cook spaghetti for me.. and my day is not complete without a birthday kiss from papa.

I miss papa so much.. our talks.. the way he would cheer me up, the way he understands me.. the way we enjoy watching Cinderella, Sound of Music... Annie.. fiction movies.. and just being my fan in everything I do... with papa i can be the best chef in the world even though Joy and Mama won't even dare to eat what i cook (sometimes).

I believe that Papa is just there in heaven watching over me.. and he wanted me to be strong and to move on.. with his love inspiring me.

On my birthday I woke up crying =( but then I tried to enjoy my day knowing that Mama is always there to pick me up if am so down.. its been like that for four months, if she's breakin' down, I would also act as the strong one that she can depend on. I received greetings from friends, cousins.. a phone call from my aunt.. Tita Neneng always remembers my birthday, she never let it pass without greeting me. I am still in bed.. and I asked Mama to take these pictures.. I am opening the "pooh and friends" chocolate and stuffs from Joy. =)

On my birthday... Frederick is here for me, he knows how I need his company even if I won't say it.. its a surprise visit should I say, because I didn't expect he would make it on my birthday knowing that he was also here last November. He's really my favorite "certified shock absorber"... I know that (maybe) he wonders why I don't even text him for a whole day etc... don't answer his calls.. or he always has this "unexpected" faults... (it's easy especially if I keep finding one) but then if we're together.. we are just "happy"... he can make me laugh and I make him laugh (even if i don't intend it) I can tell him secrets and he can tell me his secrets too (but he expects I won't tell it to others.. hoping? hehehe) I sometimes caught him just staring at me.. I can make him smile. =) and he can make me smile too... well, we're just inlove ah. =) hmmm should I say.."I hate it when he's not around.. but mostly I hate the way I don't hate him... not even close... not even a little bit.. not even at all." hmm have I posted this kind of lines in my previous blog? well... never mind, that's in my MINd after all.. hehe =)

My mama.... love you mama... I am so blessed to have you Mama.. I know that you are a strong woman. I am so happy to have you.. your the best Mama in the world. You inspire me a lot.. You always make me strong.. and to move on with life. I love you unconditionally... Your love and Papa's love for me make my birthday complete.